DETROIT (WXYZ) — Detroit rapper Big Sean is opening up about his battle with depression and anxiety and seeking therapy for it, in three videos posted to Instagram overnight.
The rapper talked about how he wasn't feeling like himself, and even meditation, which he had been doing since he was 17, wasn't working. He also said that music started to feel like a burden, when it was normally his happiness and joy.
After getting therapy and finding out how to love himself again, he said he's making the best music of his life.
Check out the videos and the log below.
"As I’m going into year of life, you know what I’m saying, wiser, I’m definitely seeing things differently than how I used to see them. I just wanted to speak on it and share, because, a lot of y’all need insight just like I do and probably feel similar, too.
Right around this time last year, around my birthday, it was good for me but it was wild for me, too. It felt like something was not connected with my energy, I’m big on energy.
I wasn’t feeling like myself and I couldn’t figure out why. So, what I did was I stepped back from everything I was doing, from everything I had going on, because somewhere in the middle of it, dawg, I just felt lost. I don’t know how I got there.
I’ve been meditating since I was 17 years old, you know, that helps with anxiety, depression, all them things. It wasn’t doing it all the way for this, so I knew this required some special attention.
So what I did was I started therapy. I got a good therapist, I was blessed enough to talk with some super spiritual people and they told me one thing I was missing from my life was clarity. You know, clarity. Clarity about who was around me, what I was doing.
And even the music, you know, music is my happiness, my joy, that was always an escape for me, but it was starting to feel like a burden, like a job. The relationships around me, people I was growing up with, I had a lot of toxic relationships around me, even the relationships with my mom was getting to a point where we weren’t talking like that, and it was weird because it had never been like that with me and her.
I realized it all started with me, I needed to analyze myself. I couldn’t point the finger at anyone else, I had to point it at myself, nurture those relationships that were important to me, but most importantly, nurture the relationship with myself.
I started realizing that you can’t give or depend on somebody for a good time if you can’t give it yourself, dawg. I started doing things by myself. Doing things I never thought I’d do like going skydiving, whatever I thought was fun, just doing it. In the midst of that, I definitely rediscovered myself and found a whole new energy. Me being the source of it, not somebody else.
Then I started getting back to making the music and it started getting fun again. I’m making the best music of my life.
I started nurturing those relationships that were important to me and putting that time into unconditional love. That conditional love is cool, the money, the instant gratification, but everything else that you stand on, that’s the unconditional love. So, put the energy back into yourself, be clear with what you want to do and who you want to do it with, and it all translates into happiness.
It feels good to be back at a higher level."